waited too long

 waited too long 

phase 2

Note: Dear readers if you are directly reading Phase 2, I recommend you to finish reading Phase 1 so that you can relate to Phase 2 and its continuation 

Disclaimer: This story is based on imagination and no person's name is mentioned

A year back, at my friend's place

my friend was scrolling over his Instagram profile and I suddenly jumped up from my sitting to show him a meme, and in that very moment my eyes fell on a profile on his recommendation list,

My brain being more sarcastic at that moment turned my mood romantic after seeing her. koi itni perfect kaise ho Sakti hai yaar, me taking more interest quickly grabbed his phone and started stalking her, agar zayadha technical mai explain karu tho, I guess I can put it this way,

"She came like a virus and crashed my entire brain for a second"

Pata chala ki she is not from the place where I currently stay, kuch khas pata nahi chal paya, lakin jo first sight tha wo bahut special tha, kuch khaas tho zaroor tha usmai, looks may no doubt ache celebs ko bhi peeche chod dhe.

so I came back home followed her and Ek baar phir se went through her profile, and went back to bed.

A couple of weeks later

I was scrolling my Instagram and I saw her story, ek baar dil mai aya ki kuch reply karke dekhta hu, kya pata reply kardhe, phir ek second thought, karo ya na?

chalo kar he diya, ab mai raha overthinker 100s of thoughts running over my head, did she see it?

I guess no, agar dekhli hothi tho kuch reply aatha na ? na tho at lest seen tho hotha, waise tho  dil ko samjaa rakha tha ki aise celeb koi bhi anjaan insaan ya random person ko thodi story ka reply dekhne chale.

after a couple of months phir bhi bahut baar koshish karthe huye pata he na chala ki kaise ek saal guzar gaya.

ismai ek baat achi thi ki zindagi mai false hope nahi tha, jo bhi tha.pata tha ki ek tarfa hai ,jo bhi chalra tha per sukoon tha.

per meri kismat ko kuch alag he manzoor tha.

Did I forget to say that I love socializing with people, I remembered my college day when my professor said to me don't lose the smile, u got it so different that it can make more ppl smile like the stars shine with respect to the sun.

There was a workshop happening and it had become a mandate to join, but did I forget to say how confused I was to attend or skip

I tried to avoid it by stating some reason but it didn't work, But wait let me say you why I'm avoiding it now, it's definitely not boring but dude wo aari hai,

It's a year now, so many texts r still left unread and I'm seeing her from the front what if she recognizes me, no no that's so fucking scary.

Do you know what hurts the most? our regrets. they haunt us in our lifelong.

so got some courage and went to attend.

met new ppl, shared different thoughts, and it's been half an hour plus and there was no sign of her, but something strange happened as the workshop went all people started turning back, but my neck was down I knew what was coming through those doors and there she was with the white scarf with her friend, got some courage and I went back to offer her my chair where I had occupied the first chair in the row thinking she was all alone, but what she was with her friend and there was one chair left in front which was mine ley me and mine kismat and I grabbed all the limelight in the workshop standing. 

 so stupid me what was going down my head, and after a couple of hours it got ended and there is so much I can describe and I'm pulling this blog way too long, tho kabhi maan hua tho I will be writing phase 3 on this.

it is been a couple of months now

we are neither dating but now we both share a close friend story wala tag on Instagram, ha kabhi baat hothi hai insta pe aur aksar reply ke liye wait bhi karna padha hai kuch ghante ya kuch din.

reply ana aur baatein hona is 2 different thighs note that.

kuch nahi busy hothi hai shayad, akhir alpha lady jo hai. tho afsoos mai isko reply ki category mai daalu ga.

per ab samne milne aur kaafi baatein ke baadh disturb si chal rahi hai zindagi,

pata hai q?

phele zindagi kafi sukoon si thi jab tak mere pass expection na tha,

but ab expections aagaye the,

tho isi beech akhsar hum unko he hurt kar baithe hai jeenko hum sabse zayada chaha the hai.

per ab nahi, raasta bada khoobsurat sa tha, kafi khosish bhi ki is raste pe unke chere pe khushi ya smile lane ki , but shayad pata nahi kar nahi paya ,dekhthe hai is jaanam na tho agla he sahi

kaafi door aya hu, lagtha hai ab thoda thum sa jao.

I want to break the cage and be free now, from my thoughts but akhir pata nahi is azaad ka kya faida

but pata nahi kal kisne dekha hai,

kal ho na ho